Guilt about dating
Your letter is full of dignity; you refuse to make excuses for yourself but admit to 'the thrill of another man finding me attractive'.Ah yes, let she who is without sin cast the first stone.This is the first (and maybe the last) time I have told anyone my secret.I can't even tell my oldest closest friends, or my GP, as I am so ashamed of what I did.
If you literally 'pray every day for forgiveness' then any Christian will tell you that you already have it.
Dear Bel, About a year ago I had a fling with a work colleague which lasted a couple of weeks, before I couldn't stand it any more.
I always knew I could never live with myself if I was unfaithful, so I'm truly at a loss as to why I did it - other than I was selfish and stupid, and got excited by the thrill of another man finding me attractive.
It's a complex story written in prose so intense you want to re-read most sentences.
Relevant to you is what the main character, ancient Roseanne Mc Nulty, tells her secret journal about a terrible mistake she made when she was young, at a turbulent time in Ireland's politics when the priesthood and the gun ruled the land.